I am still alive, don't worry.
Time for a story and a half to keep you all updated as to where I am at the moment in regards to my dad's health and my own situation.
As I said a while back now my dad had to go into hospital due to severe stomach pains. We finally know what they are. Thankfully it is not cancer and is treatable with drugs. Needless to say a weight on my mind has finally been lifted. It was especially stressful because, horribly, what my dad has is exactly what my mummy died from when it finally ruptured.
So, good to know what it was and thankful I made him do something about it. Needless to say as well, I want him to change doctors but that's another story.
Then I started to get the same symptoms -- lack of appetite and extremely painful stomach pains. Because I've been working so much and couldn't afford time off, I wasn't able to go to a doctor. I literally worked through a whole day in utter agony, a job where the shift is 7.5 hours long, there is only a half an hour break and you never get to sit down while you're working.
It was hard, not least because I wasn't eating properly.
In the end I went to a walk in clinic and they just said I should see my doctor or go to AE. Needless to say, I wasn't going to AE so I tried to book an appointment with my doctor...but she was full up. This is the same doctor who was careless towards my dad's condition. I made the earliest appointment I could, which wasn't until the following week and took plenty of pain killers. By the time I saw my doctor I had managed to so subdue the pains that she, of course, thought nothing of it and suggested I might be lactose intolerant.
Right... calling bullshit on that right away. It would make sense but for the fact that I got the pains regardless of what I ate or if I didn't eat at all. In the end I asked for a second opinion, telling her straight that after the mess she made of my dad's diagnoses, I wanted to see someone who knew more about the gut than she did. Needless to say once she sensed that I might leave her practise, she immediately booked me an appointment at the hospital.
I had to really wrestle to get the time off work because they are so short staffed but I did it as my boss was very understanding. Long story short, I too have an ulcer - just one - in my stomach. It's much less serious than what my dad had and not even in the realm of what killed my mother, but it explained why I get stomach pains randomly after eating.
So, that's what's been wrong with me. I really hope you all understand that because of work, my dad and my own health problems I have barely even touched the computer.
Once this coming week or two is over, I will be back to normal as my immediate superior is away from work for two weeks so I am now in charge of our stockroom. Finally feeling a little healthier, I hope I can concentrate on getting better and building up some good experience for the CV by doing this job.
Problem is I have been working full time in a job I only moderately like and not for a lot of money.
Trouble is I need money. I'm going to really start saving hard with my job and, though I doubt there will be much call for it, I'm thinking of opening up commissions for the first time ever on this page. I will probably make a little guideline on what I can do and for how much. As the call for it will probably be low, the prices will be too. Every little helps, after all. I am working on a couple of pieces now, and possibly some hand drawn art as well to add to my gallery (or profile). I basically want to get a clear scope on what I can do and make my style clear.
More details to follow. Also, heh, the time has come I think to play catch up with my inbox because it currently stands at 300+ updates from you lovelies.
...which is a lot for me because I only keep track of a handful of deviants as closely as this. I owe some of you a crap load of feedback on your works and *cries* I'm sorry for not doing it enough.
Then again, I hardly ever get feedback myself which is why I know how important it is. So, I'll steadily be doing that.
Also, one more confession, I have been on a TV and Fire Emblem binge and Professor Layton vs. Ace Attorney is out too so I'll be distracted by playing video games too. Again, sorry! I suppose during my down time, when I'm not working, I'm indulging my addiction to the handheld system that is the 3DS.
Believe me, it's a life saver when you're spending the weekend in a hospital bed surrounded by women 50+ years older than you.
I hope you are all well and hope I speak to each of you properly once I'm all caught up and back online proper. You know how the longer you leave it, the more scared you feel about going back for fear people will hate you for having been away for so long? That's what I'm like at the moment.
Anyway, thanks for reading and (hopefully) understanding!